I gave you my heart

My heart hurts today, more so than usual.

My heart hurts, and I don't know what to do,

I feel like it is being crushed, twisted, broken.

My heart hurts today, and still, i love you.

I tried so hard to hide it, I built walls to protect it,

Buried it deep down, denied it still existed.

Yet, you found it with ease, decided it was yours.

You knew it was protected, you saw how it resisted.

You knew from the start, just how broken I had become.

You saw my scars but, you didn't turn away?

Instead, you wrapped around me, held me close,

And with that embrace, I felt my walls could sway

I started to listen, to believe your words, to trust

To think I could be loved, accepted or worthy,

You gave me hope, a light, a bright spark.

It's obvious now, what a fool I truly must be.

You gave me my smile and lifted my spirits,

Told me that there was no limit, that happiness was real,

Deluded my mind with sickly sweet words.

Taught me what it was again, to allow myself to feel.

I listened, I followed your guidance and opened up my heart

I allowed you in, wanted you to take all I could offer

I gave myself to you, did what you told me to,

I let my walls down, I let myself suffer.

The words of a fool have replayed through my mind,

The words I tell myself when my heart starts to ache.

Each, a false hope, a wish, a desire... quite simply, a lie.

I tried to rely on them, but it became too much to take.

My heart hurts tonight, can you feel it at all?

My heart aches, that much is true.

Even though I don't have it, I feel it is breaking.

My heart hurts tonight, because I gave it to you.