Worlds apart

My feet traipse through the dead leaves, my fingers dance along the rough face of every tree that passes.

The moon my guide, the sound of every step was so loud in the land of silence.

There was no wind, no breeze. nobody else around and it hurt.

It hurts so much to know you aren't here beside me, no longer graced by your presence.

Often, too often, I think about you. Haunted by the memory of you.

I remember your laugh, your smile, the way your eyes would shine on a night like tonight.

Too many times have I woken to the false sensation of your hand holding mine or the sound of your voice in my ear.

My skin pricks at the idea of your breath down my neck or your lips, those soft lips I shared many a kiss with.

If life had been kind, you would be beside me still.

The scent of the woodlands surrounding me brings back a nostalgic feeling,

like how we used to come here together, we'd be laughing about some mundane joke, talking about the trouble of family.

Often we would be crying in each other's arms and wishing the world would end.

Sometimes, I guess you really do need to be careful of what you wish for.

There is something different tonight though, something feels wrong compared to the many times I've returned here alone.

As I lower myself to the lake, I'm greeted with a sad pair of eyes, a weakened smile and a knife lodged deep into my heart.

How could you leave me like this?

Why did you fill me with so much heart ache?

I wish nothing more than to have you here, beside me.

I watch, the reflection of my sorrow in the water shifts as the moons light fades away.

The clouds drift across the sky in such a painfully slow motion, awaiting them to clear, waiting forever,

in this moment, I see you once again. I see us, kneeling side by side at this very lake.

Our laughter fills the air as our eyes meet like they once had belonged, together.

I look down into the waters and see a world above me, I look down to see the world I wished to be a part of.

Where we would sit side by side and enjoy the life we had.

A world where heartache wasn't included, where my smile felt real.

I lower myself into the waters in hopes of somehow joining you.

That there would be a magical portal between this world and the world with you inside.

The world where you never died.